On My Mind

Earlier in the night I was hearing music from my phone. The songs it played were, "Draw Me Close," "Bring the Rain," "God with Us," "Spoken For," "Homesick," "Find Your Wings," "Word of God Speak," and "My Help." I was swimming naked in the pool, and it was so amazing to listen the music and watch the stars. The stars were amazingly beautiful. I was thinking of how one day I am going to ascent into heaven, be greeted with the beautiful Lord's face, and finally be home. I am thankful for Jesus being enough and Him being the one Truth that lives today in this world that guides and directs me into what His light would have me see this moment, today, and all of the days He has blessed me with living. I cannot imagine what it will be like to see the scars left by His crucifixion. I am hoping to keep focused, enjoy the moments I am living in the moment, love in the way God has called me to do so, but most importantly I hope that I keep God the focus of my life...submitting to His will and surrendering all I am for Him. As much as I want to make love again, I am going to wait for a man who deserve the beauty I hold when I share myself with him. I am creating in my mind's eye a boundary that will keep me away from succumbing to the temptation to sexual immorality. I believe God brought this to my attention this past Sunday. I heard the youth pastor speak about how making love feels good, but God intended us to make love to our husbands and wives. Making love is meant to be shared in holy matrimony. I believe this to be true. He said it was like Adam and Eve in the garden, and them eating of the fruit on the one tree God said not to eat thereby them being cursed with the pains of child labor, sin, and mortal death. The youth pastor said that the fruit wasn't disgusting, but the principal of it was Adam and Eve weren't supposed to eat of it. So, now I understand that I don't want to make love before marriage. I want to wait and experience making love with my husband in a way I never imagined it could be like. As it is getting pretty late, I am going to get ready to fall asleep. I wish you love, peace and hope in the One who has come and overcame the world.