Without His Grace

Sometimes I see images of what and who I used to be before I turned my life over to Christ. It scares me to look back. I see how His love has transformed me, and it is so hard to forget or let go of who I am. I praise God that He doesn't hold grudges or holds His love conditional. The lyrics that ring in my head when I had written the statement were the ones, "where would I be if His love didn't save. You are everything I've hoped for..."

Last night when I was getting some help, I used the opportunity to spread a message of God's love. I prayed over those would were working and those who were afflicted with some form of illness. I am not trying to brag or boast, but am just trying to write that in my time of need God gave me an opportunity to be His hands and feet.

I love being God's hands and feet.

There are so many people hurting in this world. It breaks my heart. Even with my own issues, I feel blessed to have a sense of knowing who I am in Christ and how the Holy Spirit works within me to give me strength and convict my heart of wrongdoing. I think of how I see the world around me, as people who are normal and have life altogether," and then on the other hand I see myself as someone who doesn't have it together and needs help. I give my life and issues to Him, and I know He will bless me eternally in the long run. I can praise His glorious name in spite of whatever I am going through because I know He has not foresaken me. He remembers me because my name is carved in the palm of His hands.

So, tonight, I want to leave this post as is, and post the lyrics to Casting Crowns, "East to West."

"East To West"

Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other