Controlled by the Spirit

Tongue of Fire

I woke up this morning with an urgency to worship the Lord. I got showered, did my hair, put on makeup, and woke my sister up. We went to FHBC and I knew God led me there today. My sister and I dropped my son and nephew off at their classroom for Sunday School and worship, and then I decided to go my separate way into a different Bible study than my sister. In Sunday School, most every thing I've been posting on here at Blogger was being spoken of and great conversation happened. I couldn't help but think about the women who sat all around the square shaped conference tables from me. Each one of these women were unique, an image of God, and unashamed to speak of the truth they knew in their walk alongside Christ Jesus. I liked that. I felt the Spirit there in that room. I learned about the 50 days after Pentacost. I learned about the burning bush, the tongue of fire, and about the reasons why people of Jewish faith practice certain holidays during the times before and after Christ's crucifixion. Sunday School was awesome to say the least. I went to main worship, and just was led by the Spirit to shed cleansing tears and sing out praises to my Lord and Savior. I heard testimony speak to me, imagery of Jesus' second coming, and a church that are the legs, arms and hands of Jesus here on earth right here and now. I also felt God speak to my heart about my wishing He'd beckon me home sooner than later, and felt like He was telling me it is okay to be forward looking but if I forget what opportunities God presents me here and now that becomes a sin and the lost souls' blood stained on my hands. It was deep. I also heard God speak to my heart about taking accountability in my life for the things I can change and do in spite of who or what is happening around me. It was like God was speaking directly to me. My heart and soul shed tears stored up in my heart of hearts, and Jesus just took me under His wings of mercy and I humbled myself to surrender my life, my will, my heart and soul to be His servant, controlled by His loving Spirit. I couldn't hold the flood of tears that poured out of my eyes. I stood there. The pastor, his wife, and another woman prayed over me as I felt God's mercy fall down on me, and then I was introduced along with another couple to my new church family. I was moved beyond words. So as it says in the Bible, "His mercies are fresh every new morning," "let tomorrow worry about itself," "I love because God first loved me," and "it is I who have been crucified in Christ and I no longer live but He who lives in me," I commit myself to doing His will, being the Mom I need to be for Tien, the daughter to my parents, the sibling I am to my sisters and brothers, the friend, the witness of what God has done in my life, and the person I need to be for those people in my life whom God has placed in my life. So as I close up for tonight, I wanted to share with you a couple prayer requests, concerns, thoughts, and scriptures God has placed on my heart.

I would like to share a prayer request over a young mother and three daughters I had the pleasure of meeting. Their names are Sorocco, Priscilla, Sammi, and Lillian. May they be in good health, good spirits, and lifted up.

I am concerned over finding a way to keep God first in my life and, yet, be forever mindful the love God has given to me is to share and be a witness for what He has done in my life.

I was thinking of creating a sanctuary in our new home for just my son and I. I was hoping to make it ours. I want it to be a place I can worship the Lord, seek His comfort, raise my son, and love without fear of what it means to carry the cross God requires me to wear. Can you pray for me that I keep God the focus of our new home and not the things or stuff we can put in it? I'd appreciate that.

The scriptures that has been laid on my heart come from Psalms. The first one reads, "Let me hear of your unfailing love in the morning, for I am trusting you. Show me where to walk, for I have come to you in prayer." Psalm 143:8 NLT and Psalm 139:23-24, " Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts;And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way."

Lord, whatever You require I am ready. I will seek out each opportunity you wll give to me, and hopefully I will glorify You in the outcomes of sharing how Your love transforms my life over and over again. There is so much to be thankful for. And, Lord, You know that which is on my heart. Forgive me of those sins I will confess to you, and help me learn to forgive myself. I love you Lord. Your portion is sufficient enough for me. Continue to shed Your light, so that I may follow that pathway straight into your arms and see the love in Your eyes face to face. Amen.